Friday, December 12, 2014

Gloomy Forests, Eerie Silhouettes, and Soundgarden

Dear Diary:
I remember when Chad Higgins introduced me to the music of Soundgarden.  I think I’d gone to his room to retrieve a Screaming Trees CD when he asked whether I was familiar with them.  He popped in Badmotorfinger and played three songs: "Rusty Cage", "Searching for the Ground", and "Drawing Flies."  They blew me away.  Around that time, I was also into Screaming Trees and Smashing Pumpkins.  Looking back, I see that there is a depressing, shoe-gazish thread in Smashing Pumpkins’ music.  However, they aren’t nearly as bad as Soundgarden, who never did anything light such as Smashing Pumpkins’ “Whir” or “La Dolly Vita” or “Crush”.  It’s noteworthy, though, that the Smashing Pumpkins album containing the most light, happy songs—or that is the least depressing over all, whichever you prefer—is Pisces Iscariot, which is mainly a collection of songs that didn’t make the cut for the previous two albums.  It came out to very little fanfare the year following the release of the breakout hit, Siamese Dream.  Come to think of it, I didn’t even find out about until housemate, Patrick Searle told me about at least a year after its release.  It’s been my favorite by the band ever since.  Even the hard and fast stuff on it, i.e., Frail & Bedazzled, a Zeppelin-level ass-kicker, has a positive feel, offering the good kind of catharsis that rock music can.  I’ve been telling people for years it’s their best album.  As I write, I recall that I did own the original band’s last album, Melancholy and the Infinite Sadness, but did, in fact, either sell it or give it away because I didn’t like it.   I’m should also note that Smashing Pumpkins has a song called Geek U.S.A.  (Please, say it isn’t so.) 

Now that I know what I know, I have no choice but to suspect that perhaps there are some less than good intentions in Soundgarden’s art other than the obvious lyrical turns against Christianity.  Like Pisces Iscariot, their second album, Badmotorfinger contains mostly songs that offer catharsis without being downright dreary, but their next two albums, Superunknown and Down on the Upside, each take a decidedly depressing down-turn from the previous album.  I think I always knew that, but I liked the music in Badmotorfinger so much, I stuck with the band.  It took me while to get into Upside.  Some of its songs are obtuse to the point of being nearly completely inaccessible.  I don’t think I’ve mentioned this, and, like so many other things I’ve said, it’s going to sound crazy: part of the brainwashing is to make the subject like being depressed and feeling lonely.  It’s better than going out and being covertly harassed.  They make you indignant with anger and sadness and then trick you into thinking it’s all caused by the U.S., capitalism, and Christianity.  Chris Cornell is quite obviously anti-Christian.  I recently came to the unavoidable conclusion that the brainwashing I’ve been subject to is primarily meant to turn me against Christianity.   

I’ve mentioned that part of the visual attack on me has been to expose me to eerie, dreary images of people in silhouette, lit from behind.  There’s one on Kevin Andrew Walker’s Twitter page.  There was one in the San Francisco State student film, “Trigger” starring my TEFL classmate, Miyako Abe all by her lonesome.  I’ve seen them elsewhere.  I think I may have also mentioned something about a “gloomy forest” appearing both in John T. Gestapo’s book, “Loneliness,” and on Bill Doggett’s business card.  Recently, after taking another look at Soundgarden’s album-cover art (shown here), I had to reconsider their work.  The covers for Superunknown and Upside were done by photographer, Kevin Westenberg.  It doesn’t take more than a cursory examination of Westenberg’s website to see the stark, lonely quality of his many of his images:  According to Wikipedia, two other titles were considered for Upside, “Mr. Bunchy Pants,” and “Comin’ At Ya.” 
Down on the Upside
Another image I haven’t mentioned until now, but have suspected is related to all of this, is something that kind of looks like the round, sharp-edged working part of a grinder.  I noticed quick shots of one in the film, “Event Horizon,” written by Walker.  I've seen them elsewhere.  Described on the Wikipedia page as a “jagged, cyclone-like design,” the image on the cover of Badmotorfinger, designed by Mark Dancey, is much in the same vein.  Check out Dancey’s website:  His surreal art is downright disturbing.  Also, you may recall a video I posted recently in which I discuss visualizations in Windows Media Player, one of which is called “Event Horizon.”  I talked about how they’re intended to hypnotize.  Another one I covered in the video, shown here, is called “Cominatcha.” 

Chad Higgins had a passing interest in music with Satanic themes.  The only Grateful Dead song I ever heard him play was “Friend of the Devil.”  He’s proud of a high school paper he wrote on Satanic themes in the music of The Rolling Stones.  Bob Higgins is a big Rolling Stones fan.  Bob and I used to talk about music a lot.  In a discussion about Soundgarden, I said Badmotorfinger is way better than Down on the Upside, which I may have borrowed from him.  He said he didn’t like Badmotorfinger because it’s “amelodic,” which is ridiculous.   Bob had the tablature book for Upside which he just gave to me one day…and never asked for it back.  Bob made a trip to San Francisco a few years ago and tried very hard to convince me that I’m insane.

It all must be a coincidence, or, perhaps, that pesky paranoid-schizophrenia of mine again.

Are you familiar with the Soungarden song, “Limo Wreck,” tucked away neatly on Superunkown, released in 1994?  I hear the word wreck in there a few times, but I don’t hear anything about a limousine.  Strange.


Please, excuse the layout issues in this post.  Either blogger or my computer or probably a both can be downright impossible when I'm trying to add images to my posts.  My computer always moves at a snail's pace, but when I'm trying to do pics in posts, it can be reallllly, oh, shall I say, frustrating? 


Wednesday, September 10, 2014

SF Man Claims He's Jackie O's Son

Heir To Large Fortune; Under Covert Attack By CIA, Socialists, Other Interested Parties

Those behind what's happening to me rely on the assumption that no one will believe me.

I was adopted as an infant.  For the past twenty-five years, women who are political insiders and/or federal intelligence operatives have been surreptitiously entering my life with the goal of marriage.  More recently, I have been the subject of numerous death threats.  I have been framed for a number of heinous crimes and have been the subject of extensive and varied character defamation.  I have proof of continual attempts to entrap me for certain very serious crimes.  For the past five years, I have been stalked and harassed by political operatives who apparently have the goal of driving me to suicide by way of continual psychological and emotional torment.  This harassment is conducted on the internet as well as in person.  A woman claiming to be my mother, who’s actually an aunt or a cousin, attempted to have me institutionalized.  All of this is happening because I am the beneficiary of a very large trust fund by way of my birth mother, Jacqueline Kennedy Onassis. 

August, 1969
In August of 1969, United Press International reported that Jacqueline Onassis was pregnant.  The reports were denied, but witnesses said they saw her in maternity clothes.  At the time, she was living on a private island owned by her billionaire husband, Aristotle Onassis.  I was born in April of 1970.  While I do not closely resemble Ms. Onassis, I do resemble other Bouviers closely related to her.    

Ms. Onassis was raised on Long Island an in Manhattan.  One of the women who snuck into my life is the daughter of a Long Island Episcopal Minister named David Plank.  We dated for four years, during which time, I didn’t see the significance of certain incidents of strange behavior by her and her family, particularly the Reverend making a veiled allusion, in my presence, to a very significant inheritance meant for me.  He also made unprompted comments about having friends in the CIA.  I now know that members of that organization play a major role in my persecution which I recently learned started long before I met the Reverend’s daughter.  Over the past twenty-five years, I’ve been the subject of numerous invisible scams and set-ups meant to ruin my reputation in a variety of ways with the goal of making me a social pariah with no trusted friends of confidants.  The crimes they've framed me for make it impossible to obtain employment.  I am forced to conclude that the main tools used to frame me are Photoshopped images and green-screen videos using a look-alike, something the CIA is known for, as suggested in the book, Nemesis, about Aristotle Onassis.  On a number of occasions, I’ve have been brought to a point of inebriation and/or drugged and coerced into making agreements or signing contracts I would not have otherwise, another thing the CIA is known for as suggested in the book, Too Rich, about Doris Duke.  It has also been suggested to me that I have a twin or a even a clone.

Those responsible for this invisible attack rely on two assumptions: that I would never figure it all out and that, if I did, anyone I might tell about it would not believe me and assume me to be insane.  I am perfectly sane.  I have proof of many of my claims.  My phone calls and e-mails get intercepted, mainly to prevent me from obtaining legal assistance.  I have no privacy whatsoever and my movements are tracked by GPS.  All of this is being done in combination to keep me destitute and unknown along with continual attempts to intimidate me into submission and drive me to suicide.  Simply put, powerful interested parties are trying to bury me and have been undermining my life for many years.   

A covert operative commented to me, “You know, a trust accrues interest over the course of generations.”  The person who assists me in securing my trust will receive a very handsome monetary reward.  

Jacqueline Bouvier Kennedy Onassis, JFK, Socialism, CIA, San Francisco, New York City, Radziwill

Tuesday, February 5, 2013

"John's Watchful Comedian" / "John's Consecutive Essays"

 Babe Cushing Mortimer Paley

Click on the following link and Ctrl-F "Event Horizon."

I recently learned that I have been the subject of socialist brainwashing dating back at least to my days as a college student in the early nineties, but quite possibly to when I was five years old.  There is actually much more to it, though.  (For a complete narrative summary of my experience with socialist brainwashing, visit my About Me page.)

This post is an ongoing log of occurrences and thoughts I add as they happen or as I remember them or figure out what had actually happened at that time.  Call it a diary.  I still, on occasion, realize that a certain "random" encounter in my life from years ago wasn't random at all.  There's no particular order to this post.  The link above is to my original blog concerning my situation which leads off with a rundown in chronological order of my experiences dating back twenty years.  Later in the post are some things that sound really crazy, so keep in mind that the goal of those harassing me is to keep me constantly confused, frustrated, and scared.  It is also critical for them to portray me as insane, which I definitely am not.  I have enough proof of certain claims, such as the screenshots below, to lend credibility to everything I've said.

On-Line Torment
A major part of what the forces working against me have done is to use the internet as device to torment and threaten me.  I've taken a series of screen-shots of what I see on my computer that prove this beyond all doubt.  You can scroll through them here, but a similar list with captions that explain what you're seeing can be found at the end of "SF Man Claims He's Jackie-O's Son."  In the most blatant of these, the 3rd and 4th in this set, you see screen-shots of  Amazon gives the user the option to pick an "Express Checkout Payphrase" and in its set-up screen has a "generic" sample phrase.  Usually, one might expect this to be "Fido" or something meaningless.  It's nothing more than a sample.  In my screen-shots, you can see two "sample" Payphrases that appeared on my Amazon page which are rather odd: "John's Consecutive Essays", and "John's Watchful Comedian."  And, of course, in the first screen-shot is an image of JFK Jr.'s head in the sights of a gun.  Odd, no?

My Internet (Click to enlarge and scroll):

Friday, January 4, 2013

Berkeley-Law Bird Killers Accused of Stalking by San Francisco Man

Video Clip of July Encounter Portrays a Guilty Cuellar; SFPD Ignores Reports

Eric Cuellar (left), and Justin Teixeira
Last week, two University of California-Berkeley law students were officially charged in the October beheading of a rare bird at a Las Vegas resort.  Justin Teixeira and Eric Cuellar each posted $7,000 bail and now await trial.

Today, a San Francisco man reported to police there that Teixeira and Cuellar are part of a covert network of individuals who have been stalking and harassing him for the past 4-plus years.  John Zoccali says his harassment, which has included numerous death threats, started in Ohio and followed him to San Francisco.  Zoccali claims the members of this shadowy group track him with GPS and often...

Tuesday, October 9, 2012

I.P., Rochester, NY

Well...this is very interesting.

You may recall a recent post about some odd SPAM I'd been getting as responses to my new site, Sports Greats Journalism Archive.  I get e-mail notifications of these pending comments.  Here's what they look like:

Saturday, September 29, 2012

Computer Network??

Today while I was working with folders in my computer, I accidentally clicked on the "Network" folder.  I seem to recall looking in it once or twice at some point in the distant past, but I don't recall seeing anything like this:

You know, I'm slightly computer-idiotic to say the least.  What does all of this mean?  Should I be concerned?  I didn't even know I was on a "network."  I know that two of the computers listed across the bottom are ones I see in my Windows Media Player "Other Library" choices.  Not sure how specific computers end up there.  Similar music tastes, maybe?  It's that big field of blue screen icons that interests me.   I Googled me up some info that indicates "Workgroup" is the default group name of your computer.  But, still--why these computers specifically?

Sunday, September 23, 2012

Quitters Inc.

I've never read a Stephen King novel, though it's always been in the back of my mind to do so.  A friend just happened to tell me about King's short story, Quitters Inc.  I haven't seen anybody with severed fingers around, but the plot line sounds very, very familiar.

Elements of A Valid Contract
The parties to the contract must be of legal age, sane, sober, of sound mind and
under no legal handicap or duress. Persons who might lack legal capacity are minors, people who are intoxicated or those adjudged incompetent.

Tuesday, September 18, 2012

More Strange SPAM at SGJA

Since I moved Sports Greats Journalism Archive to Wordpress, I've discovered that when someone comments on a post there, I get the I.P. address info.  I think some of these hackers can hijack and I.P. address, but still, there must be some significance to the address I see.  There are also websites that can tell you the location of the I.P.  I've got a couple from China that I think are just random, generic spam.  Here are a few very strange comments I find noteworthy.  Sometimes I think someone's trying to communicate to me in code.  Naaaaa--I must be crazy: 

Saturday, September 1, 2012

Letter to S.I. Regarding Lance Armstrong

J. Paul Zoccali
San Francisco, CA  

Editor, The Mail
Sports Illustrated

Re: Scorecard/"Finished," September 3, 2012 Issue

Dear Editor,

Bravo on your recent article, "Finished," which very neatly wraps up the Lance Armstrong doping scandal fairly and with perfect pitch.  60% of those surveyed not believing Armstrong is guilty, despite USADA's stockpile of damning testimony staring him in the face, serves as an apt illustration of an instance in which passion for sports heroes can be a bad thing.  Indeed, it is inarguable that if Armstrong was not concerned about being officially exposed by a guilty verdict, his stance would be, "Let's go to court, so I can spank your ass right out in the open."  I know mine would be, whether I had a personal dynasty at stake or not.

Best Regards,
J.Paul Zoccali